ohmyfurandwhiskers: (big geek grin! :D)
I spent a few hours at Coffee Cartel yesterday because Frogger (my best friend) and Emma (another good friend) were working the day shift. I finally finished a book! Dave Pelzer's 'Help Yourself'. I was going to work on reading more of 'Too Scared To Cry' but I was in too weird of a mind state to do so or stay. I got upset with Pepé because he didn't understand what I was trying to say to him and it always irritates me when I feel like he's not on my side when he should be. URG.

Anyway, I went home earlier than I expected to and ranted for ten minutes about it and played WoW for the rest of the night. This is my Squeakeeh. A Blood Elf Shadow Priest. I'm really only a casual player because the newest dungeons and any type of raid at all puts me on the verge of panicking. Last night I finally got the following achievements...

Fistful of Love - Which required me to camp out in an enemy city (Stormwind). I died several times but because you can see enemies around your body when you're dead, I was still able to resurrect and throw flowers at my intended targets before I was killed again. Totally worth it.

Explore Twilight Highlands - Just exploring one of the newer areas.

Silver in the City - Required a lot of fishing in a small fountain in the old sanctuary city in Northrend. I had to find a list of certain coins and I had a lot of good fortune last night in that area. It gave me something to do whilst watching Numb3rs via Netflix on my phone.

Illustrious Grand Master Fisherman - Finally maxed out my fishing skill after playing for three years or so. HAH!

I'm mostly working on leveling my archaeology skill, hunting herbs, fishing out pools, and returning quests I've had for a long time as I fly all over the old world. I have yet to be killed by Deathwing, sadly. I am also trying to add to the numbers for guild achievements such as fishing up 10,000 fish from pools and killing 50,000 critters. It staves off the boredom of my life and it gives me something to do whilst watching stuff on Netflix. I hate not doing anything with my hands when I'm watching shows or movies.

I just finished watching one of my favorite movies, Clean Slate, and, now, I have four shots of espresso over ice to drink and some jobs to apply for. ADIOS.

P.S. Whoa. Weird throbbing coming from under my left eyebrow... The fuck is this?
ohmyfurandwhiskers: (secret moose!)
Quinn is in heat and driving me insane. She keeps jumping on my shoulders and then stabbing me with every single one of her crazily sharp claws. I received a check in the mail from Autumn (my mother) so I have chosen to use it to finally get her fixed and get her shots and whatnot. I'm still scared about doing it but I can not go through this again. I will rip my own ears off!

I totally ate way too much mapo tofu, which I got after Therapy Session #1 for comfort food. I wasn't expecting the container it came in to be the size of my head! To overwhelm the spiciness a bit, I dumped the steamed rice in it, which made it taste a lot better. I find it strange that West End Wok, my favorite place to get Chinese food, doesn't have chow mein on the menu. Strangity. <--- Not a word, but should be...

I am currently reading seven books, which almost makes sense because I'm nine books behind on my goal of reading 150 this year. I should probably work on my inability to focus on any one book at a time. OR I could start a new book and pretend that I don't have a problem.

Currently Reading!...

#1.] 'Too Scared to Cry' by Lenore Terr, M.D.
#2.] 'Treating the Brain' by Dr. Walter G. Bradley
#3.] 'Help Yourself' by Dave Pelzer
#4.] 'What You Really Really Want' by Jaclyn Friedman
#5.] 'The World Without Us' by Alan Weisman
#6.] 'Of Human Bondage' by W. Somerset Maugham (re-reading)
#7.] 'The Mysterious Flame of Queen Loana' by Umberto Eco

Maybe I shouldn't be so avoidant. Hm... *ponders* Well, it will be dealt with a bit starting 2/20 and through Black March because I'm not renewing my Netflix subscription. Aha! Take that, distraction!

In the meantime, ONWARD WITH THIS NUMB3RS MARATHON!

014. Amygdala.

Thursday, January 19th, 2012 02:10 pm
ohmyfurandwhiskers: (Default)
Pepé and I are over, supposedly "on hold". No job. More tears. I want to give up. The only things really keeping me going are Frogger and her Llama and my kit-kats, Quinn and Kaylee.
ohmyfurandwhiskers: (live long and prosper)
Since Friday I have...

Gone to Chimichanga's with Pepé, Frogger, and her Llama. A "double date" as Llama exclaimed.

Gone to Heartbreakers on the Landing and Attitudes Nightclub in the Grove where Llama works.

Witnessed my first drag show (at Attitudes)! And saw Tyler Cross (Siren) perform live! I've known of him for so long so to see him perform live was incredible. And, I was so much more comfortable in that gay nightclub than I've ever been in anywhere so crowded. I think this makes sense considering my fear of drunk, straight men. (McHenry had been drinking the night he raped me and ever since I've not trusted drunk men.) I had people shoving up against me but I didn't feel like I was about to lose my mind at all. I was more worried about not pushing Frogger and Llama or their friend as a result because we were standing right at the side of the stage. Hey! I even used the restroom there... twice! I mean, I covered the entire thing in toilet paper because, ew, but it's the little things, right? Heh.

Had lunch at The Drunken Fish on Saturday with Cartel's Poltergeist, my favorite ex-manager who left Cartel one year ago to teach. Frogger joined us and I ate way too much. Oh, the seaweed salad! I was glad that I had the gift cards from the Cartel Christmas party.

On Sunday, Pepé and I had our first argument. And then we handled it on Monday, via text because he was at work and I didn't really want to discuss it in person anyway out of fear of a bigger argument. We haven't hung out since yet although we do have plans to do so today. It all came down to me needing him to be more supportive and him being sarcastic and blunt instead.

Got a call about a job interview at Dierbergs for Thursday, which Frogger is giving me a ride to because it's at a different location than where I would be working. Strange, but I hope I get it. I've been going crazy with nothing productive to do.

Did my taxes. Supposedly, I'll be getting enough back to cover what I owe my bank, which is over $450 at this point, and have enough left over to hopefully pay for my expenses to get out of this apartment. There's no way I'm going to have enough money to pay for another month's rent and I cannot keep borrowing against future direct deposits so I really need to talk to my friends about maybe staying with one of them. I'm trying not to think about it too much but my unemployment checks still haven't come through. I'm getting further and further in debt and there's nothing I can do about it.
ohmyfurandwhiskers: (get comfy and read!)
Since being fired, I have filled out 18 job applications, have a flimsy idea of a resume in process, and discovered that I can type 80-85 wpm (depending on how cold my fingers are whilst typing).

I haven't really been doing much with my time aside from reading at Coffee Cartel, watching DVDs, cleaning random areas of my apartment, fretting/crying, and harassing my friends via text messages.

On Thursday, I was on my way to deposit the little cash I did have at the bank when I came across Frogger and her Llama unloading store supplies at CC. Frogger told me I was going to go to lunch with them when I told her I wasn't doing anything. We ended up at Central Café and Bakery where Frogger and I ordered falafel (my first experience with it and I, of course, loved it) and her Llama ordered some sort of chicken wrap and something hookah-ish. (I don't really know much about hookah aside from that it smells good.)

I have to say I really love Central Café and Bakery's grape leaves and I wanted to order the baba ghanoush but they demanded I order an actual meal. I wasn't going to force it as Frogger was being kind enough to pay so perhaps some other time when I have a job again. I felt guilty because of the money but I'm trying not to. She's been very generous. I don't feel like I deserve it. Anyway, I love Middle Eastern food. If I could live off stuffed grape leaves and hummus, I would. Although, I would miss unagi very much if I did.

I'm obviously really hungry. Heh. That was the first real food I'd had since I was fired. I mean, I've had a couple of bagels here and there but there's not much nutritional value in those aside from carbohydrates/glucose. I moved some money around and it's fucking me over but I have a $50 credit available on one of the cards I was trying to pay off so I'm going to see if I can use that to buy some fruit or something later today.

My last paycheck didn't cover my rent. So I had to borrow $30 from my bank to pay it. Yay fun! I just keeping making my situation worse for myself. It's pretty awesome.

I'm sort of running out of energy... I think I'll read s'more...

004. Apoptosis

Monday, January 2nd, 2012 01:09 am
ohmyfurandwhiskers: (Default)
So! I managed to finish reading 60 books in 2011. I'm disappointed that it wasn't more, such as the original 150, but I knew by the time I decided to go back to school for fall semester, I would have to settle for just 60. Books Read in 2011

I was much closer when it came to watching 300 DVDs (either movies or the discs of TV show episodes)... I made it to 209! DVDs Watched in 2011 - A little bit out of order as I forgot about the list until December. Oops! I'll consider going back and adding the dates from Netflix instant, at least.

GOALS FOR 2012! Books to Read? 150! DVDs to Watch? 250!

Now, for the bad news... I got fired from Coffee Cartel on Thursday, the 29th, by the owner. I wasn't given an exact reason, rather it seemed a bit cumulative and muchly do to my high level of stress. As much as I loved working there, the people who I worked with, and the regulars who made my day when they came in, I can't stay angry. I am, however, very depressed right now. I'm trying to put my life into perspective and be grateful for all that I do have, but it's extremely difficult when I just lost my job, the one thing that had defined me since April 2010. I feel like a part of me was murdered, and I'm ashamed to admit that I totally begged him to reconsider, even though I knew he wouldn't. I cried for five hours straight and woke up the next day with hideous bags under my eyes. Grieving... I keep thinking I've gone through Kubler-Ross's five stages... Denial and Isolation, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance. Then, I start haphazardly cycling back through them all. It's super fun as you can probably guess.

At least now I can make out with Pepé as Emma so tactfully put it. Heh. Yeah... *goofy grin*

I've still been going to Cartel every single day and I still consider Frogger (the general manager) to be my bestest friend in the whole wide world. As far as I can tell, everyone still likes me. Even people who I didn't think did, have told me that we're still friends and have expressed sympathy. My regulars who I have spoken to about it, because I care about them and don't want them to just disappear from my life, have also apologized and given me hugs. *goofier grin*

It doesn't prevent me from being depressed, though. I've already applied for unemployment and submitted ten online job applications. I'm waiting until Tuesday to go job hunting on foot because I don't want to be the annoying insect of a person waltzing in on the Monday after two major holidays. Yeah, no thanks. That's like the equivalent of calling to ask if we're hiring in the middle of a lunch rush. I have one last paycheck coming to me and approximately $90 to my name as of right now. I'm going to pay my rent ($365) on the 6th, when I get my last check. Hopefully, I get unemployment with no issues and it's enough to pay the minimum $210+ in my other bills. I dropped out of the only class I was going to take this semester and I'm going to go get my $66 refund from cashier's office. And, I have other bills that I'm really scared about and none of this includes food for myself or my kit-kats. Yay.

At least I have Frogger, Llama, Pepé, Emma, Mama Nerd, and everyone else in my life who has been supportive of me. Without them, I'm pretty sure I would've just killed myself. Seems melodramatic, but considering how difficult it is to find a job in St. Louis, especially when you don't have a driver's license or a college degree yet, I really think it's a good back-up plan.

I'm so fucked.
ohmyfurandwhiskers: (Default)
What am I doing? It's 2:53am and, instead of being a sensible person and sleeping at the moment, I'm reading a two-star book written for young adults. I have to be at work at 6am, a 24/7 coffee shop called Coffee Cartel where we cater to several types of vices for those who are on their way to work or school or coming back from one of the nearby bars. We sell coffee, espresso drinks, tea, quick meals, ice cream, desserts, and there's even a cigarette machine in the back. I've been working there since the end of April 2010 and since starting I've moved up from working the floor to being a manager. In addition to the basic duties of being a barista and preparing food orders, I also do the inventory once a week and call in orders from our vendors. Despite the usual issues working with the public entails, especially the specific food service issues, it's the best job I've ever had and I love the place very much.

On why I'm reading instead of sleeping... This past year, I had two goals (amongst others but these are ones I'm focusing on finishing right now), read 100 books and watch 300 DVDs, either movies or the discs of TV show episodes. Of course, I didn't even come halfway close to accomplishing either goal. Mostly, because it's pretty impossible to do either when you work full-time and go to school part-time. So far, I've read 56 books (I'm working on finishing about four at the moment, one of which should be finished before I head into work in a couple of hours) and approximately 190 DVDs. As a result, I've changed my goals to 60 books and 200 DVDs. This, I feel is much more manageable and will be the goals I make myself for 2012.

Why here and now? I created this alternate journal to be more forthright with my everyday activities. I also have a journal elsewhere but I've had journals there for such a long time that I don't feel like I can change the setup without disturbing history, if that makes any sort of sense. Also, somewhat recently, there have been several DDOS attacks on their servers and I'm concerned about the future of my journal. I don't really want to continue a commitment to such a shaky service, especially since ownership changed and that's supposedly the reason for the attacks.

I'll return later on tonight, possibly. I have plans to hang out with my best friend and the store manager of Coffee Cartel, Frogger*, to go see her girlfriend, Llama, at the nightclub where she works. This will actually be my first time ever going into a nightclub so I'm pretty excited about it.

*Nicknames for now until I can ask if I can reveal their actual names.

Profile

ohmyfurandwhiskers: (Default)
D. Troy

July 2012

S M T W T F S
1234567
891011121314
15161718192021
22 232425262728
293031    

Syndicate

RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Saturday, September 23rd, 2017 12:57 pm
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios